shiny BLKHRT new jersey

i love my car

i just brought her home and it's so ridiculous. All pretty in her shiny black shoes.

waiting to be driven and dropped

into 3rd on an entrance ramp to route 287

or wherever I can.

I'm going to kiss her and take a selfie.

not even kidding.

i do think its a crazy love but I don't care

i traded my Z4 for a 2010 porsche boxster

and i'll never look back.

Emergence

I saw this documentary once about the laws of emergence that I come back to from time to time. Go in the same direction - don't get too close - avoid predators

It was on Nova
http://www.pbs.org/wgbh/nova/nature/emergence.html

I'm writing this down because it was on my mind while I was falling asleep and I thought I'd better write it down before I forget it.

I've been trying to keep my mind occupied to keep from getting obsessed about my "newer" car that I'm picking up on Thursday. I'll tell you later ;)

Working on three major design projects - lots of work to do between now and Monday. That and the need to decorate my office in Edison. have to repair the walls, paint and then hang some large format prints I'm having made. I'm think of a lamp too.

Lots to do, and now Im feeling inspired.

Sarinablackheart, design superhero

Wyle E Coyote, Super genius

I love that episode!
http://youtu.be/STeVTzWelns

(no relation to my life,  or the rest of this post - I just love the diabolical way he says his name)

Wish me luck I need that superhero strength the next few weeks.

Sarinablackheart's motto is "love yourself". The collection of gifts are sexy, sophisticated and stylish. Something is launching valentines day 2015... It's still being created.

Inspired design, created by heart.

Beautiful autumn

I'm going record myself playing a song and post it one day soon.  The thought horrifies me - I am way to self conscious. I think it'll be good for me and at the very least amusing. I'll try to channel my inner @lenadunham

I played my Gibson tonight because I recently rediscovered the beautiful tone it has. It's deeper, warmer. I favored my applause because it's black and easier to play. I love playing.

I just found out that I am not he only one having trouble uploading photos on blogger using my mini ipad. It's a thing.

I played "ain't no mountain high enough", "unloveable" and "captain fantastic"

Feeling particularly happy ;)

What's love got to do with it

I probably shouldn't be writing on my lack of sleep. I've been incredibly busy this week. Mostly all creative. It's funny how much thinking it requires and my brain literally hurts - in a good way.

Some days it feels like everything is in its right place (even if it means that it's not what you want) - the planets align and i move glacially yet at the speed of light equally.

I have no idea what that means if anything.

I put together a few presentations that I was very happy with - to sell a collection of bath and body care products that I designed and am developing with a great group of people I work with.

I've just been working on some new projects that I can't share yet - ;)

And  I bought a dress form - finally and found my patent leather oxfords and handbag - and got tickets to see alt-j at the Beacon in November - yay happy birthday to me!!!

xoxo

ordered the iphone 6plus today ;)

what a beautiful day - perfect temperature with a little bit of rain to give the world that freshly washed look.

I'm in a shopping mood - which is rare (good thing), I even looked up bathroom fixtures for the inevitable time when I absolutely have to re-do the main 2nd floor bathroom... this one is as old as the house (built in 66).

Its the calm before the storm in terms of the leaves falling around my house. My house is in the woods and the amount of leaves that fall from now until December is ridiculous.

I like blowing the leaves, I do - but last year I decided that it was going to me be my project to blow all of the leaves (instead of hiring someone to do it for $1500!!).

It's very satisfying - in an OCD kid of way. Clearing the area of every leaf, acorn - wayward rock...
I live on 1.3 acres - and its a major hill from the top of the back yard to the bottom at the corner. I usually run the blower until I run out of gas and if I'm feeling really ambitious I'll fill it twice.

In the end, the tsunami of leaves was too much to bear and I resorted to hiring a service to finish the job. I tried - this year I'll try again.

I'm working on a presentation for Monday. There are no set expectations which are my favorite because I love exceeding them. I love the challenge. The reward I get is seeing actual movement and progress made with the information and ideas that I present.

why so cryptic? I'm not that good at writing?

I had to let a new client go this week. I realized that it just wasn't a good fit for me, no matter how much (or little - in this case) I was making. Are other people intolerant of just making money regardless of how it makes you feel? I can't do that.

She asked me for an explanation and I didn't give her one - just wished her well and moved on. I thought of writing this whole philosophical reason... but I thought that was crazy and unnecessary. I'm just saying no. I think I have that right - if something doesn't feel right.

Before I started my business I had one last full-time position. I learned some really valuable lessons about myself. Stay true to yourself. Always be authentic.

xoxo

alt-j

alt-j left hand free

play it real loud with the top down

it rocks.

by the way - winter is coming... and i still have PTSD from last year.

I'm shopping for a car, trying to decide if I should put my car in retirement since its got 115,000 miles on it and it needs to be babied from now on

(the car has been and continues to be a dream - it seems healthy and happy... wondering if I should garage it and get something somewhat less luxury/sporty/practical for everyday use)

OR trade this car in completely for another one with a lot less miles?

My car is a Black BMW Z4 Roadster 3.0i - soft black top, 
with tan leather interior, standard shift. Love love love it
but nothing lasts forever.











If I keep it... I would get a Jeep Wrangler Unlimited Sport - black with black, standard -

If I trade it... I would get a newer Z, OR a more family friendly convertible (4-series?) OR an equal value porsche boxter - must be black, standard shift.

I'm just talking to myself - and I figure that maybe if I post it, I would feel obligated to myself to make that commitment.

While I am writing this I am watching a youtube video of Alt-J in concert this past September 2 in NYC - debuting This is all yours at Le Poisson Rouge. I wish I was there - they are playing at the Beacon Theatre November 16th - though it seems it's almost sold out. That would be fun.

all distractions

Stay up late

I'm writing this on my mini-iPad for the first time - not my favorite way but I can't bring my iMac

on top of me laying on my bed looking at my pretty gothic wrought iron chandelier against the amber glow.

Sometimes I think that Emily Dickinson was beating around the bush. That kind of seems obvious - though who did she think she was fooling? Or was there a common agreement to just play along because everyone was hiding something.

I just got sucked into a shampoo commercial because they flashed a Dalmatian puppy for a fraction of a second. Brilliant!

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